do you want this too?
hai im emily. wait no scratch that. im juliet looking for my romeo and a new pair of converse (': i was in love, but that was yesterday. i want to live my life, not just survive. but, it's hard to grow up in a world where you never feel like you're good enough. silence can be a girl's loudest cry. i think that in the end, we're all a little bit fucked up sometimes. anyways, this is my blog where i post my true feelings and all that actual shit. here, im real. and there's no stopping me.
Sunday, September 30, 2012
Saturday, September 29, 2012
1D Stuff
Whoops; Sorry
lol... been very busy this week. sorry i haven't updated much. i cought a cold. i feel miserable. my sinuses hurt and i keep sneezing/coughing. having a cold sucks. my voice sounds weird, too. i feel like i have very little time each day. probably because most of my time is spent at school.
wow, i feel like my mom doesn't really sympathize with me right now. i'm complaining to her about me feeling sick and everything and she's just like "why aren't you doing your homework right now?! i hate it when you always wait until the end to rush everything and when you always sleep so late!!!" and i'm just like thinking in my head "thanks mommy i care about your health too i love you" jeez. note the sarcasticness?
According To You by Orianthi~
According to you
I'm stupid, I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.
According to you
I'm difficult, hard to please,
Forever changing my mind.
I'm a mess in a dress,
Can't show up on time,
Even if it would save my life.
According to you, according to you.
But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible,
He can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny, irresistible,
Everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
So baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
According to you.
According to you
I'm boring, I'm moody,
You can't take me any place.
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cuz I always give it away.
I'm the girl with the worst attention span,
You're the boy who puts up with that.
According to you, according to you.
But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible,
He can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny, irresistible,
Everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
So baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
According to you.
I need to feel appreciated,
Like I'm not hated.
Why can't you see me through his eyes?
It's too bad you're make me decide.
According to me
You're stupid, you're useless,
You can't do anything right.
But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible,
He can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny, irresistible,
Everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
Baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
According to you, according to you.
According to you
I'm stupid, I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Begin Again*
so... Taylor's new song came out yesterday ^^
it's such a good song!! i love its simple, country tune. much more like the Taylor that I knew and remember from the last album. her first single "We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together" was a lot more pop than country, but it was still an awesome song :D
so anywhoo, her new song is called "Begin Again" and it's about moving on and starting a new relationship after eight months of thinking that all love did was break, burn, and end. it's probably the country-est song i've heard so far on her album RED.
go check it out for yourself! have a listen (:
*note: this song is a little bit pitched so that the person could avoid copyright
Monday, September 24, 2012
Liam pushes Niall on interview
LOL WHY HAVE I NOT SEEN THIS BEFORE?!
OMG I LOVE THIS SO FREAKING MUCH.
One Direction - Use Somebody - iTunes Festival
the whole video is really lovely and all...
BUT SKIP TO 1:45 IF YOU WANNA HEAR NIALL <3
Taylor Swift's "Begin Again" Preview & Lyrics on GMA
SO AWESOME. HOLY CRAP. I CAN'T FREAKING WAIT FOR THE WHOLE ENTIRE ALBUM TO COME OUT. OH MY GODDDDD MY EMOTIONS RIGHT NOW!!
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Friday, September 21, 2012
Aloha Dance
there's a dance today for school... it's supposedly a dance to "welcome the freshman" i don't really want to go... i'm kind of tired and i just want to stay home and sleep lol. but like, my friend kind of guilted me into going. she was all like "go with meeee please?" and i felt bad not going with her, so now i'm going. at least i got the ticket at a good price. i got it on orientation day, and that's when the price was the cheapest hahaha wow i'm such an asian XD the dance thing is 3 freaking hours qq oh well...
Thursday, September 20, 2012
One Direction - Live While We're Young
OMG I LOVE THEIR NEW SONG SO MUCH
AND ASDFGHJKL ZAYN'S EMOTIONS IN THIS XD
Monday, September 17, 2012
Friday, September 14, 2012
Movie Night!
tonight's movie night for the freshman class at my school (: our theme is the fantastic freshman (fantastic 4) so i think we're watching the fantastic 4 movie. everything's going to be $1 apart from the admission fee of $5. it's kinda like a fundraiser thing for our class of 2016 i guess lol :P
tangled punk version. this actually kinda fascinates & scares me |
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Happy Swift Day!
wow today's swift day (: and niall horan's birthday!! :D and today was the first day since school started that i finally got to take a nap in the afternoon (: today was also back to school night for the parents. lol my mom said she got really confused walking around everywhere hahaha.
this is my thinking: niall's looking for his princess right? taylor's looking for her prince charming right? wouldnt it be awesome if they got together? if that's not good enough of a reason for you, then look at this. niall's birthday is on september 13th and taylor's is on december 13th. both of their birthdays are on the thirteenth! it'd be so cute if they dated... their sons would know how to treat a girl right and their daughters would know which boys to look out for and yeah. they'd be super cute with their dirty blonde hair and so adorkable with piercing blue eyes. oh and dont forget personalities! a tad bit of taylor and a hint of niall all mixed together. good grief my feelings right now asdfghjkl; just think about it. you agree now? yes yes yes? (:
this is my thinking: niall's looking for his princess right? taylor's looking for her prince charming right? wouldnt it be awesome if they got together? if that's not good enough of a reason for you, then look at this. niall's birthday is on september 13th and taylor's is on december 13th. both of their birthdays are on the thirteenth! it'd be so cute if they dated... their sons would know how to treat a girl right and their daughters would know which boys to look out for and yeah. they'd be super cute with their dirty blonde hair and so adorkable with piercing blue eyes. oh and dont forget personalities! a tad bit of taylor and a hint of niall all mixed together. good grief my feelings right now asdfghjkl; just think about it. you agree now? yes yes yes? (:
my collage! i made this (: |
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Today
today me, myself, and i had a discussion about dinosaurs and came to the conclusion that t-rexs were only angry and aggressive because their arms were too short to hug one another. pretty sad, huh?
So Sleepy
gah im so sleepy. i wanna take a nap in the afternoon, but there's never any time to. i have to much homework, and it's only the first or so week of school! in fact, i actually already have 2 quizzes tomorrow. like, what the hell? it's just not fair. garrrrrrrrrrrahhhhhh
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Nine... Eleven
today was the day airplanes crashed into the twin towers due to an act of terrorism... at least i think that's what it was due to. anywhoo, today's a sad date... but yet also a happy one. for today was also my friend's birthday! i know, it's kind of sad day to have a birthday on right? but get this: her older brother by like what, 2 years(?) has the SAME birthday as her! creepy right? but kinda cool too! :D LOL wow i'm weird :P
Monday, September 10, 2012
Finished :D
finished my homework pretty early today except this one question in my geometry homework. i had to wait for my dad to come home from work so that he could help me... wow that question was hard. it took forever for me and my dad to figure it out! i might actually be able to sleep early today, if i dont stay up all night reading shenny fanfics for big bang theory again LOL. i mean, i finished all my homework, i already showered, i exercised today, etc. all i have left to do is to prepare for school tomorrow and to do my back exercises. sighhhhh. oh how i hate scoliosis. i wonder what it feels like to have a normal back...
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Holy Crap!
wow school just started and i already have no time to go on the computer and update this blog. god that sucks :( my first day of new chinese school was today. it sucked.
you would not believe how down i was feeling today at chinese school because it's level 4 so of course it was harder cuz technically i sort of skipped a level. switching schools was hard because at my former school, i knew all the people in my class - we've been in the same class but with different teachers every year since kindergarten. but not that we're high schoolers, the chinese class actually counts as high school credit and so there's so many different levels. it's like level 2, 3, 4, and then AP. most of my former classmates were put into level 3 at my former school and i think i would have been too. but i switched to the school (the one i'm going to now) because i would be able to go directly to level 4 and then AP next year, meaning i would only have to do language for 2 years instead of 3. i could finish faster, which is better for me (:
but as the class started and stuff, i realized i was really alone because everybody already knew each other from the year before, and most of them could all speak and read and most likely write chinese better than i could. i felt kinda stupid and like i didn't belong in level 4. my mom was still there talking to the principal or something by the time it was break time and she saw me looking kinda sad and she was like "what's wrong?" and i started sniffling and crying a bit cuz i just felt so bad. she said that maybe i should look at the level 3 class then and see. so i like, peeked into the level 3 classroom and it was already so full of people, most of them all 8th graders. the teacher didn't look as i dunno... cool? lol. i liked my level 4 teacher better, so i just told my mom that i would stay in level 4. i'll just have to work harder to succeed.
i just kind of wish i had more friends in that class. there are people that i know, but we're not really close friends. plus, during break they all kinda group together and sort of ignore me. it's slightly sad, but i don't mind that much... it's just a bit lonely you know? being alone is one of my worst fears...
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
So, Um...
well the teachers are okay... my english teacher scares me though. he's really tall so he's kind of intimidating. i love my geography teacher; he's so freaking funny!!! my biggest fear was getting lost on campus, but it didnt happen so i guess everything's gonna be okay lol. i have an english test on friday already though. it's to see what level we are on. i hope it doesnt count as part of our grade. it better not >.< geometry teacher seems fairly nice. spanish teacher seems okay... she's kind of er... chubby? ok, she's fat, but whatever i dont care that much hahaha it's not really my business. my PE teacher seems okay so far. i didnt really get to know him much today. my biology teacher is pretty straightforward.
i'm guessing the subjects i'll have most trouble on this year is spanish (because i'm completely new to the language), english (because i heard the teacher i have is really difficult), or biology (same reason as before and also because i just really suck at science). lol so yeah... oh and good news! my PE teacher said that we won't have the swimming unit until the springtime. so i guess that's good. more time to prepare? idk.
i'm guessing the subjects i'll have most trouble on this year is spanish (because i'm completely new to the language), english (because i heard the teacher i have is really difficult), or biology (same reason as before and also because i just really suck at science). lol so yeah... oh and good news! my PE teacher said that we won't have the swimming unit until the springtime. so i guess that's good. more time to prepare? idk.
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Monday, September 3, 2012
Labor Day
hello labor day. it's monday. the very first monday in september to be exact. fun fact! this holiday is a creation of the labor movement, and it's dedicated to the social/economic achievements of american workers. it's supposed to be like an annual national tribute to the contributions and stuff workers have made to the strength, prosperity, and well-being of our country. yeaaaa USA! USA! USA! :D
here's a little fun fact about mondays too (:
here's a little fun fact about mondays too (:
Sunday, September 2, 2012
New Edits! :D
Saturday, September 1, 2012
School
school is starting in just a matter of 4 days. i'm going to miss summer. today's the first day of september. it's finally sinking, yah know, the fact that summer's pretty much over? now that august has ended, i just kind of get the automatic feeling that "omg school's starting."
i'm so nervous. i'm now a freshman in high school now. this is kind of a big deal to me. a whole different school to get used to, a whole bunch of new teachers, a whole lot more homework and tests and projects, a whole gazillion more people to meet and make friends with... you catch my drift? everything's so different all of a sudden. everything's changing. and i don't know if i can keep up with it all. of course, everybody goes through this. but i can't shake the feeling that something's going to happen. i guess i'll just have to wait and see. it's the only sensible thing to do.
i'm so nervous. i'm now a freshman in high school now. this is kind of a big deal to me. a whole different school to get used to, a whole bunch of new teachers, a whole lot more homework and tests and projects, a whole gazillion more people to meet and make friends with... you catch my drift? everything's so different all of a sudden. everything's changing. and i don't know if i can keep up with it all. of course, everybody goes through this. but i can't shake the feeling that something's going to happen. i guess i'll just have to wait and see. it's the only sensible thing to do.
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