hai im emily. wait no scratch that. im juliet looking for my romeo and a new pair of converse (': i was in love, but that was yesterday. i want to live my life, not just survive. but, it's hard to grow up in a world where you never feel like you're good enough. silence can be a girl's loudest cry. i think that in the end, we're all a little bit fucked up sometimes. anyways, this is my blog where i post my true feelings and all that actual shit. here, im real. and there's no stopping me.
Sunday, May 27, 2012
Golden Gate Bridge 75th Anniversary
woo! watching fireworks... on tv LOL QQ im such a loser
oh and hey it's memorial day weekend! 3day holiday (:
ugh i still need to find a dress for my 8th grade graduation
Friday, May 25, 2012
New Edits
these were for my "brother" (he's really just a friend lol)
and since he's a big fan of coldplay, i thought i might make an edit or two for him (:
and since he's a big fan of coldplay, i thought i might make an edit or two for him (:
Sort of an Edit x]
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Heyyyy
So it's been a while since I updated LOL. But I've been really tired ever since I came back from Anaheim. It was really fun, and I loved every minute of it. I wish we could have stayed longer. Our school won first place in every category we were put in, which gave us a total of 7 trophies! I think all of the other schools thought we were conceited jerks or something hahaha. My voice is still sore and slightly raspy... it's weird.
I hate how right after Anaheim I had to study for a bunch of tests. I had a science test two days after, and I failed it (got a D) because I was too tired to study. I tried to study, but my head just couldn't think clearly. Oh well. What's done is done, and I can't change it none. I also had an English test, which I think I may have failed. Not entirely sure yet. Oh, and I had a math quiz today. I didn't know how to do a lot of the problems... I was like "Oh shit, what the fuck is this? I don't know any of this." I think I may have gotten a B- or even lower. However, I think it'll be okay, because I have a 96% right now in my math class. Plus, we have another quiz next week, so that should bring my grade up a little bit.
I miss Michel. His phone broke a couple weeks back, and I feel like we hardly ever talk anymore. Wow, I just realized how cheesy that sounds. He might have a new phone and never told me, but I don't know. I just wish we could talk more again. Is it weird that the last thing I do before school gets out for the summer this year is hug Michel... just once? I just want to see what it'd feel like for him to hold me... Yeah. Maybe it is a little bit weird. But, it's the truth! One time I had a dream about me and him... best dream ever.
Mkay, toodaloo! I have to go do my homework right now. I know right? It's almost the end of the school year, and now we have even more homework and projects and tests! It's so unfair. I liked it better during elementary school where toward the end of the year we would have less tests and projects and practically no homework at all. Gah, I felt so carefree back then.
I hate how right after Anaheim I had to study for a bunch of tests. I had a science test two days after, and I failed it (got a D) because I was too tired to study. I tried to study, but my head just couldn't think clearly. Oh well. What's done is done, and I can't change it none. I also had an English test, which I think I may have failed. Not entirely sure yet. Oh, and I had a math quiz today. I didn't know how to do a lot of the problems... I was like "Oh shit, what the fuck is this? I don't know any of this." I think I may have gotten a B- or even lower. However, I think it'll be okay, because I have a 96% right now in my math class. Plus, we have another quiz next week, so that should bring my grade up a little bit.
I miss Michel. His phone broke a couple weeks back, and I feel like we hardly ever talk anymore. Wow, I just realized how cheesy that sounds. He might have a new phone and never told me, but I don't know. I just wish we could talk more again. Is it weird that the last thing I do before school gets out for the summer this year is hug Michel... just once? I just want to see what it'd feel like for him to hold me... Yeah. Maybe it is a little bit weird. But, it's the truth! One time I had a dream about me and him... best dream ever.
Mkay, toodaloo! I have to go do my homework right now. I know right? It's almost the end of the school year, and now we have even more homework and projects and tests! It's so unfair. I liked it better during elementary school where toward the end of the year we would have less tests and projects and practically no homework at all. Gah, I felt so carefree back then.
Monday, May 14, 2012
LOL
So I fell asleep on the couch today and I had a really weird dream...
I was in Ricks class and for some reason it was 6th period instead of the normal 4th period. We were watching a video on astronomy stuff of something and Brian was standing behind me. As the video went on, I got sleepier and sleepier and I somehow fell asleep or something while leaning backwards against something warm and comfortable. I assumed it was Brian, I think... And then I woke up and I turned around and realized it was actually MICHEL!! Brian started laughing at me in his quirky way and then Michel tried to run away cuz he thought I was mad. But I just pulled on his shirt and had him come back to me and then I asked him why he was here and not in PE (but he actually has history last period) and he replied saying that class had ended early for him so he decided to visit me. Apparently I was starting to fall off leaning backwards so he quickly stood behind me and let me lean on him while I slept. So cute! I blushed and then I leaned backwards again and fell back asleep on him while he hugged me from behind.
Then I woke up for real. Best dream ever! Apart from that one dream I had about me and Greyson Chance LOL. I wish this would happen for real though... It'd be so awesome.
I was in Ricks class and for some reason it was 6th period instead of the normal 4th period. We were watching a video on astronomy stuff of something and Brian was standing behind me. As the video went on, I got sleepier and sleepier and I somehow fell asleep or something while leaning backwards against something warm and comfortable. I assumed it was Brian, I think... And then I woke up and I turned around and realized it was actually MICHEL!! Brian started laughing at me in his quirky way and then Michel tried to run away cuz he thought I was mad. But I just pulled on his shirt and had him come back to me and then I asked him why he was here and not in PE (but he actually has history last period) and he replied saying that class had ended early for him so he decided to visit me. Apparently I was starting to fall off leaning backwards so he quickly stood behind me and let me lean on him while I slept. So cute! I blushed and then I leaned backwards again and fell back asleep on him while he hugged me from behind.
Then I woke up for real. Best dream ever! Apart from that one dream I had about me and Greyson Chance LOL. I wish this would happen for real though... It'd be so awesome.
Sorry
My apologies! I didn't update this blog at all last week because we were doing STAR testing at school and everyday after I came home from school, I'd be super exhausted and fall asleep.
I would've updated on the weekend too but it was Mother's Day, and you know... gotta spend quality time with me mum! LOL :)
I would've updated on the weekend too but it was Mother's Day, and you know... gotta spend quality time with me mum! LOL :)
Sunday, May 6, 2012
My Profile Picture
If you can't see what my profile picture says,
here's an enlarged version of it (:
I made this, so credit if you use!
here's an enlarged version of it (:
I made this, so credit if you use!
It's Funny... Life, That Is.
I find it quite odd the fact how February should have been a really great month for me this year. I was turning 14 on February 14, 2012. 2/14/12... I loved those numbers. It just seemed like February might turn out to be really awesome for me this year.
In fact, it didn't. I ended up having to attend a stupid Saturday School the weekend before my birthday. I didn't celebrate my birthday with my friends. No, instead I spent it at home with my family and an ice cream cake. The only presents I got were from my oldest brother who had come home from college (he goes to Berkeley, which is fairly close to home) and from one of my close friends, Jelena. They weren't exactly the greatest presents in the universe, but it was better than nothing, which I was grateful for. I didn't want to seem like I had friends or people who didn't care about me or my happiness.
Looking back, I realize that even though very few of my friends gave me any presents, they still said "Happy Birthday" to me. Most people were more focused on Valentine's Day, though. That's the sucky thing about my birthday... having it on the same day as a holiday. We were all receiving Valentine's Day cards (we call them Valentine Grams here at our junior high school) and I got one from my friend Jelena and another from a boy asking me if I wanted to go out with him. It turned out to be a joke on me... But, ever since then, that boy and I have become friends. He's a fun guy to hang out with and talk to. Anyways, the fact that Jelena actually spent money on a Valentine Gram for me made me happy. Nobody ever spent money on me before like that... Sure, people buy me presents and stuff, but never has anybody ever spent money on a card just to say the little things that they like about me and why they like being my friend... It just kind of gave me a nice, warm feeling inside. Somebody cared.
Jelena's also the one person these days who actually cares about my back. When I told her I wasn't wearing my brace as often, she automatically replied back saying, "Why? It's better if you do! It'll make your scoliosis curve better, right?" She comforted me when I was down, and she gave me advice on things. Even though I'm older than her, I feel like she has more experience in everything... It's like she knows more about everything.
Also, when I looked at my blog posts today, I saw that I only had 9 posts in the month of February... None of them were quite important. It's as if February was such a dull month that I had nothing to blog about. So February didn't turn out as lovely as I had hoped.
In the end... well, there really is no "in the end." It's more of a slight goodbye until the next time I blog. I need to hurry up and do my stupid history take-home exam/essay. It's worth 50% of my grade. FML. Fuck my history teacher. I hate her. She was the one who gave me the Saturday School (in case you didn't know).
In fact, it didn't. I ended up having to attend a stupid Saturday School the weekend before my birthday. I didn't celebrate my birthday with my friends. No, instead I spent it at home with my family and an ice cream cake. The only presents I got were from my oldest brother who had come home from college (he goes to Berkeley, which is fairly close to home) and from one of my close friends, Jelena. They weren't exactly the greatest presents in the universe, but it was better than nothing, which I was grateful for. I didn't want to seem like I had friends or people who didn't care about me or my happiness.
Looking back, I realize that even though very few of my friends gave me any presents, they still said "Happy Birthday" to me. Most people were more focused on Valentine's Day, though. That's the sucky thing about my birthday... having it on the same day as a holiday. We were all receiving Valentine's Day cards (we call them Valentine Grams here at our junior high school) and I got one from my friend Jelena and another from a boy asking me if I wanted to go out with him. It turned out to be a joke on me... But, ever since then, that boy and I have become friends. He's a fun guy to hang out with and talk to. Anyways, the fact that Jelena actually spent money on a Valentine Gram for me made me happy. Nobody ever spent money on me before like that... Sure, people buy me presents and stuff, but never has anybody ever spent money on a card just to say the little things that they like about me and why they like being my friend... It just kind of gave me a nice, warm feeling inside. Somebody cared.
Jelena's also the one person these days who actually cares about my back. When I told her I wasn't wearing my brace as often, she automatically replied back saying, "Why? It's better if you do! It'll make your scoliosis curve better, right?" She comforted me when I was down, and she gave me advice on things. Even though I'm older than her, I feel like she has more experience in everything... It's like she knows more about everything.
Also, when I looked at my blog posts today, I saw that I only had 9 posts in the month of February... None of them were quite important. It's as if February was such a dull month that I had nothing to blog about. So February didn't turn out as lovely as I had hoped.
In the end... well, there really is no "in the end." It's more of a slight goodbye until the next time I blog. I need to hurry up and do my stupid history take-home exam/essay. It's worth 50% of my grade. FML. Fuck my history teacher. I hate her. She was the one who gave me the Saturday School (in case you didn't know).
Saturday, May 5, 2012
B.o.B - Both Of Us ft. Taylor Swift [Audio]
wow! i wasnt sure at first if this would be a good song or not but this is actually really great! cuz you see, i wasnt completely and totally sure that taylor's lovely singing voice would work well with b.o.b's hardcore rapping voice. however, it turned out to be a really awesome song! not only that, but the lyrics are really inspirational too... nice job, taylor and b.o.b... i love it (:
Lyrics: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/bob/bothofus.html
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