If You Really...

if you're really believe that your life is hard enough that you should kill yourself, stop and think about it first. i know this is wrong, but experiment a little. if you can purposefully cut yourself on your arm or something so that it starts bleeding and leave it there to scar, then i'd say you're probably brave enough to commit suicide. i wouldn't recommend it though, obviously. i never had the guts to actually take a razor and cut myself on my arm. but i have taken this kind of velcro thing from my scoliosis brace and ripped across my arm so that i had a scratch. i basically scratched myself with that velcro thing until my arms turned red and i started crying from the pain. but i don't do that a lot. only well i feel like my life had gone completely wrong and when i feel like i just want to forget everything and only feel pain. i know what i do is wrong. but when you think about it, it's better than killing yourself right? killing yourself is forever. but just cutting or scratching? well, it's not forever. time heals those scars. and sometimes, i just cant help but to do it. after all... "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" right?