It's not Goodbye

I can't believe David's leaving for a 2-year mission!
I'm going to miss him so much :(
#DavidArchie2014

Up All Night [Full Album] - One Direction

One Direction's full album!
I love them so much; they're so adorable (:

One Direction

So... yeah. I'm kinda obsessed with One Direction now ^^

Inspiration

If You Really...

if you're really believe that your life is hard enough that you should kill yourself, stop and think about it first. i know this is wrong, but experiment a little. if you can purposefully cut yourself on your arm or something so that it starts bleeding and leave it there to scar, then i'd say you're probably brave enough to commit suicide. i wouldn't recommend it though, obviously. i never had the guts to actually take a razor and cut myself on my arm. but i have taken this kind of velcro thing from my scoliosis brace and ripped across my arm so that i had a scratch. i basically scratched myself with that velcro thing until my arms turned red and i started crying from the pain. but i don't do that a lot. only well i feel like my life had gone completely wrong and when i feel like i just want to forget everything and only feel pain. i know what i do is wrong. but when you think about it, it's better than killing yourself right? killing yourself is forever. but just cutting or scratching? well, it's not forever. time heals those scars. and sometimes, i just cant help but to do it. after all... "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" right?

My Worst Enemy

My worst enemy is myself.
Wanna know why?
Because I hurt myself the most.
I bully myself into tears.
What a sad life I lead.

Operation Purple Sky

Da Fuq

What the hell is wrong with this person?!?

Meredith learns about ACM voting...

LOL awh, Taylor and Meredith are so cute!

New Edit!

Safe and Sound by Taylor Swift

Shit

Aw shit my left arm, chest, and ribs hurt like hell.
Plus, my hands are breaking out in a cold sweat right now.
WHY ME. SERIOUSLY.
WHY DO I HAVE TO HAVE ALL THESE FUCKING PROBLEMS?!? WHY DOESN'T ANYBODY ELSE HAVE THEM?!? i hate my life.

I Always Knew.

Guys On The Topic Of Girls

Flirty

Sorry, It's Okay

2012 Wishes

Grey

Well now you know why I write "grey" not "gray"...

Guitar

I WANT A GUITAR SO BADLY.

Surprise Party

Woot! Everything went according to plan. My BFF was scared and surprised and it was so much fun! LOL, we were lighting candles and then spraying sunscreen onto it so that it went into this massive flaming thing. Oh, and I pushed my friend into the pool because he said he would go into my pool if he got $10... But I felt bad for pushing him in LOL even though he told me to. So I gave him $20 instead :D

Me and a couple of my friends who came early baked a yummy chocolate cake for my BFF... it looked really bad at first because we didn't melt the butter well enough so while we were mixing it into a batter, it looked super chunky... Ew O.O

She loved my present too. It was a digital photo frame, and I had preloaded a bunch of pictures in. It was pictures of us during 6th grade graduation, during cherry picking, and during our Halloween party (: Originally I felt horrible because I found out the day before that she already had one. But then, when I showed her it she told me that it was way better than her other one, so I guess it's all good :D

Gah.

They never know how I really feel. I drop little hints here and there, but in the end, I end up having to comfort them. My job is to be the "optimistic one." What ever happened to being pessimistic hm? Ever thought of that? They never realized that I have other feelings, too. I'm not always the happy one. I can't be who I'm not always am. Yeah. I think I have problems. O.o

Keep Your EYES OPEN

"Everybody's waiting for you to breakdown. Everybody's watching to see the fallout. Even when you're sleeping, sleeping. Keep your eyes open. Keep your feet ready, heartbeat steady. Keep your eyes open." -Taylor Swift, Eyes Open.

Eyes Open

Oh My Swift!!!
Her new song for the Hunger Games movie got leaked out and it's so good!! I love the song so much; there's just so much emotion behind the song. I don't know how Taylor does it... She's amazing ♥

Here's a link:
http://tasteofcountry.com/taylor-swift-eyes-open-hunger-games/

Glasses

I hate it when I don't have my glasses on cuz then everybody can see the dark circles underneath my eyes and then they start asking me all these questions like "Are you OK?" or "Damn, you look tired." or "Dude, when do you sleep?!?" They all look at me like I'm crazy. Pftch, well I'm sorry I can't be your average perfect teenager. I'm just me, mk?

My Edits!

some of my picture edits...

 

SAT

Took the SAT today. So tiring. Had to wake up earlier than usual. Got to skip my Chinese midterm, though, so I guess it's okay. The SAT wasn't that bad. Worst part was being all alone. Nobody else was from the same school as me, so I didn't know anybody. Forever alone </3

It's All Over Now

So yeah. I found out that Michel doesn't like me. He only sees me as a friend. He likes Marianne Rara and Thi Luong or something. I feel kinda sad. I thought he actually liked me. Guess not. I just told him that I liked Brian Xie. Which is true, I do like him... I'm just kinda disappointed cuz I thought that Michel had actually liked me... at least just a little bit. But I also told him that I liked someone else, except that it probably wouldn't work out so I was just going to crush on him unawares. I was talking about him. But he didn't know. He wanted to know who it was. I refused to tell him. I told him it was "my secret".

Time to listen to some Taylor Swift songs. I'll probably feel better after listening to "You Belong With Me" or "Teardrops On My Guitar" or something like that.

I promised myself I wouldn't be one of of those lovesick and clingy girls. That's going to be one very hard promise to keep. The fact that we text and chat with each other all the time doesn't help either.

Taking Me Down

Backyard

This is a picture of my backyard that I took a couple days ago...
It's really pretty isn't it? I captured the sunset with it (:

Talking

I love talking to Michel. I just don't know sometimes whether or not I should start the conversation. I know he's there, I just don't want to seem to pushy and seem to have to have the need to talk to him or something. I hate girlfriends who are really pushy and needy.

Everybody Hurts - Avril Lavigne

Don't know 

Don't know if I can do this on my own
Why do you have to leave me
It seems I'm losing something deep inside of me
Hold on onto me
Now I see Now I see

Everybody hurts some days
It's okay to be afraid
Everybody hurts Everybody screams
Everybody feels this way
And it's okay
La di da di da It's okay

It feels like nothing really matters anymore
When you're gone I can't breathe
And I know
You never meant to make me feel this way
This can't be happening
Now I see (now I see) Now I see

Everybody hurts some days
It's okay to be afraid
Everybody hurts Everybody screams
Everybody feels this way
And it's okay
La di da di da It's okay
La la la la la

So many questions so much on my mind
So many answers I can't find
I wish I could turn back the time
I want to
Everybody hurts some days (some days)
Everybody hurts some days (some days)

Everybody hurts some days (some days)
It's okay to be afraid (afraid)
Everybody hurts Everybody screams
Everybody feels this way
And it's okay
La di da di da It's okay
La la la la la It's okay

Everybody hurts somedays
It's okay to be afraid
Everybody hurts some day (yeah we all feel pain)
Everybody feels this way but it'll be okay
Can someone take me away to a better place
Everybody feels this way
It's okay
La di da di da It's okay
La la la la la It's okay
La di da di da It's okay
La la la la la It's okay

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Short Update

OMG IM SO EXCITED. IM HOLDING A SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY FOR MY BEST FRIEND. BUT SHHHH IT'S A SURPRISE! SO KEEP IT A SECRET! ;)