hai im emily. wait no scratch that. im juliet looking for my romeo and a new pair of converse (': i was in love, but that was yesterday. i want to live my life, not just survive. but, it's hard to grow up in a world where you never feel like you're good enough. silence can be a girl's loudest cry. i think that in the end, we're all a little bit fucked up sometimes. anyways, this is my blog where i post my true feelings and all that actual shit. here, im real. and there's no stopping me.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Friday, January 27, 2012
The Hunger Games
So I've started reading the Hunger Games trilogy.
All I can say is that it's been fan-freaking-tastic so far.
I'm still on the first book since I have to read it on a pdf file and not the actual thing. Why? Because I know I won't be able to find it at the library and if I reserve it, it'll take too long to get here. Why? Because recently, a movie has been developed for the first book: The Hunger Games. And since everybody's so excited about it, they've decided to read the books. So yeah, it's suddenly gotten popular. It's just like what happened with the Percy Jackson and the Olympians series.
Anyways, I really want to get back to my reading now. This was just a quick update for y'all!
Bye! Lots of love ♥Emily
All I can say is that it's been fan-freaking-tastic so far.
I'm still on the first book since I have to read it on a pdf file and not the actual thing. Why? Because I know I won't be able to find it at the library and if I reserve it, it'll take too long to get here. Why? Because recently, a movie has been developed for the first book: The Hunger Games. And since everybody's so excited about it, they've decided to read the books. So yeah, it's suddenly gotten popular. It's just like what happened with the Percy Jackson and the Olympians series.
Anyways, I really want to get back to my reading now. This was just a quick update for y'all!
Bye! Lots of love ♥Emily
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
I Like To...
I like to put myself in pain because it numbs all of the other shitty feelings that I feel.
Wondering...
I wonder how it feels like to be in loved and to be loved by a guy...
It must be something special...
It must be something special...
Monday, January 23, 2012
Friday, January 20, 2012
I Just...
wow i just cried for about 2 and a half hours because i was so scared about how my parents would think of me about getting in such serious trouble. but when my mom came home, she told me that she wasn't mad at me. she said that it wasn't my fault and that my teacher was being unfair for being so picky. she told me not to worry about what her and daddy would feel, because this was just a little thing. she said that this was just a lesson to be learned. basically, make sure you are careful with your work, because you never know how picky a teacher can be. she said not to worry about the saturday school that i have to serve either. she said that i should just do it and be done with it.
im so happy and relieved that my parents are mad at me. today was the worst day ever, and if they had gotten mad at me, well let's just say that i probably would've tried to cut myself. (except i probably wouldn't have gone through with it considering how im a spineless coward)
*sigh* well. i guess everything's okay now, apart from the fact that i still might have to speak with the vice principal about this. i really dont want to; he's really scary when he's mean. ugh, my eyes are so tired from crying now and i have a headache.
8th grade has not been a good year for me.
3 paper pickups and 1 saturday school and 1 visit to the principal and 1 soon-to-be visit to the vice principal. god, how i hate 8th grade. i mean, sure, there's been some good times, but if i recall correctly, most of them have all been bad times. i just wish this would all end soon.
i cant handle much more.
im so happy and relieved that my parents are mad at me. today was the worst day ever, and if they had gotten mad at me, well let's just say that i probably would've tried to cut myself. (except i probably wouldn't have gone through with it considering how im a spineless coward)
*sigh* well. i guess everything's okay now, apart from the fact that i still might have to speak with the vice principal about this. i really dont want to; he's really scary when he's mean. ugh, my eyes are so tired from crying now and i have a headache.
8th grade has not been a good year for me.
3 paper pickups and 1 saturday school and 1 visit to the principal and 1 soon-to-be visit to the vice principal. god, how i hate 8th grade. i mean, sure, there's been some good times, but if i recall correctly, most of them have all been bad times. i just wish this would all end soon.
i cant handle much more.
Worthless.
im broken. im so ashamed of myself. im worthless. im stupid. i dont even know why people would want to be my friend anymore; im hopeless. im probably not even good for anything anymore. when did life suddenly get to be so hard? i dont remember it ever being this way. i just want to forget everything. i just want it to end. i hate myself. i cant do anything right. i just want somebody to say that they care about me and that everything's gonna be alright and that nothing will ever hurt me. but i guess fairytales just dont come true. because i might seem like im tough and a normal girl on the outside, but on the inside im just a frightened and fragile little soul - ready to break at any moment now. i dont deserve any happiness.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Sleeping
Oh my god. I've been sleeping so late these days, like at 3am!! I swear, if I didn't wear glasses, everybody would be able to see the dark circles underneath my eyes and then they'd all start worrying over me and all that other shit. Pft, as if I don't already have ENOUGH people worrying about me.
I mean, seriously! Can't a girl get some private time around here? Sometimes I wish that people would just leave me alone, but then I regret wishing that because then I'd be lonely. Maybe what I really wanted was just somebody who understood me, like what I'm going through.
Life is hard.
I mean, seriously! Can't a girl get some private time around here? Sometimes I wish that people would just leave me alone, but then I regret wishing that because then I'd be lonely. Maybe what I really wanted was just somebody who understood me, like what I'm going through.
Life is hard.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Sometimes.
There are times where I'd feel like shit, but I'd still smile.
You know why?
Because I didn't want to talk about it.
Sometimes, I just don't want to let people in.
Sometimes, I just want to close myself off to the whole world.
Sometimes, I just need to be alone.
You know why?
Because I didn't want to talk about it.
Sometimes, I just don't want to let people in.
Sometimes, I just want to close myself off to the whole world.
Sometimes, I just need to be alone.
Cross The Line.
Hey, check out this person's Twitter. It's really good, I like it. :)
https://twitter.com/#!/cr0sstheline
https://twitter.com/#!/cr0sstheline
Running Away.
running away through the nights so black, the stars on my shoulder, pulling me back. whispers of you, ringing through my ears, trying to forget all the wasted tears and all your lies in your brown eyes. another day goes by, and all i can say is... wish i could forget you. but you keep coming back, you're running away through the nights so black, the stars on your shoulder, pulling you back. maybe you can forget, but i just can't...
Understand.
Nobody can EVER understand me. It's impossible. The only people could possibly understand what I'm going through would be other people who also have scoliosis like I do. Otherwise, nobody can. They may say that they understand and everything but that's all just bullshit.
Nobody understands.
I'm all alone in this world.
Nobody understands.
I'm all alone in this world.
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Friday, January 13, 2012
This.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Outfit
This is what I wore today. I really like this outfit. :D
By the way, my wristband says "Strength" and my necklace has the black half of Yin and Yang hanging on it. I'm also wearing grey skinny jeans and black high tops converse.
Another thing - do you like my new iTouch case? I certainly do. ;)
By the way, my wristband says "Strength" and my necklace has the black half of Yin and Yang hanging on it. I'm also wearing grey skinny jeans and black high tops converse.
Another thing - do you like my new iTouch case? I certainly do. ;)
Monday, January 9, 2012
This.
This makes me so sad... But then again, I'm glad stars like her are reaching out and trying to help and raise awareness against bullying. STOP BULLYING. OPERATION PURPLE SKY. NOH8.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/mobileweb/ariana-grande/post_2809_b_1193895.html
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/mobileweb/ariana-grande/post_2809_b_1193895.html
Sunday, January 8, 2012
New Stuff!
Yay! My mom got me new black high tops converse all star chuck taylors and a new scarf and a bunch of earrings for me to wear when I get my ears pierced and a crystal necklace thing and then she brought back a mask that her sister (my aunt) had told her to give me.
Here's some pictures! :D
Here's some pictures! :D
me and my mask and my new scarf |
my new black high tops converse all star chuck taylors pic1 |
my new black high tops converse all star chuck taylors pic2 |
my new black high tops converse all star chuck taylors pic3 |
Wow
Ok, oh my gosh, I just realized that I haven't update my blog in FOREVER!! I think this is the longest time I have ever gone without updating this... it's been, what, 5 days? Gosh, I must have been really out of it! Normally, I would've at least posted a YouTube video or something.
I guess I've just been really distracted from me going back to school and Winter Break ending and everything. Ugh, I hate school and all my teachers and all the stupid homework and projects and waking up early and all that stuff. The only part that I like about school is seeing all my friends.
I guess I've just been really distracted from me going back to school and Winter Break ending and everything. Ugh, I hate school and all my teachers and all the stupid homework and projects and waking up early and all that stuff. The only part that I like about school is seeing all my friends.
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
OMG LOOK AT THIS.
Monday, January 2, 2012
Using a pick up line on David Archuleta
awww that's adorable!
basically, she says "hey david do you like water?"
and he replies "i do!"
and then she says "you like 70% of my body then"
and then he starts laughing and stuff :D
it was the pickup line that he once said apparently
and so the two girls thought it would be funny :)
Sunday, January 1, 2012
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Happy New Year, everybody! Wow, it sure has been a year! I think, well I hope, that 2012 will be better than 2011... I don't think 2011 was really my year.
The first song that I listened to in 2012 was "Safe and Sound" by Taylor Swift featuring the Civil Wars. I mean, I just wanted me to feel "Safe and Sound" in 2012, yah know?
Anyways, I hope you all have a great new year. Oh, and I hope you guys all watched the New York Times Square Countdown thing! I know I did. (:
The first song that I listened to in 2012 was "Safe and Sound" by Taylor Swift featuring the Civil Wars. I mean, I just wanted me to feel "Safe and Sound" in 2012, yah know?
Anyways, I hope you all have a great new year. Oh, and I hope you guys all watched the New York Times Square Countdown thing! I know I did. (:
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