it aint my fault i swear
it's that darned school stuff again.
it's ruining my online life
ugh i hate my deformed, twisted body. i had to go to acupuncture today for my scoliosis, and i was listening to my music cuz it helped take away the pain. well... not completely. i try not to whimper or cry out in pain when the doctor guy sticks the needles in... instead i just kinda take sharp intakes of breath.
my mom and the doctor guy probably thought i couldnt hear what they were saying but i could. i could hear my mom say how sorry she was that i had to live this way with this stupid and ugly curved back. she was telling the doctor how she hated how i had to suffer and how when i grow up, im going to have to suffer even more than i do now becuz im young now. when im older, my body will have more troubles and other shit.
my dad's a firm believer in yoga and my mom's a firm believer in acupuncture. to be honest, i hate both. i wish there was just some magical cure that would fix my darn spine so that it looks normal and so that i dont have to feel different and ugly from everybody else.
i wish i could be normal.
no, i dont need to be perfect.
just normal is fine.
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| ha... ha... ha... sigh... |
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