My Fahriend

my friend got asked out to winter ball today. i'm happy for her, but i also cant help but feel slightly alone all of a sudden. every time i hang out at school with my... "friends" during lunch, i cant help but feel like i just dont fit in and that i'm invisible to everyone. i feel like none of them really notice me unless they're having a conversation with me. then, they pay attention. otherwise, i'm just a ghost of a whisper.

One Direction - Kiss You (Live on The Today Show) 11/13/12

aiya they're so good live!
asdfghjkl why are they so perfect?
especially niall <3

Relationships

why is anything and everything all about relationships now? like, i feel like everybody i talk to always wants to say something about a relationship. idk. ugh, fuck off. im happy being single. i mean, it'd be nice to have a boyfriend and all, but to be honest i think being single is pretty good, too. i fee like in high school, everybody is required to have some sort of relationship at one point or another. i just, well, i dunno how to explain it. i dont get why everybody feels the need to have and to talk about a relationship right now.

my friend asked this guy to the upcoming winter ball, and he said yes. she even has a dress already and everything. wow. mind = blown. that awkward moment when one of your close friends suddenly get a date and you feel really alone and less sophisticated and younger than everyone.

if i go to the winter ball, i'd want to dress in clothes like the ones in the picture below. except i'd probably change the jacket to a blazer or something and the high tops converse to regular low tops converse. no sunglasses, too. and i dont have pierced ears yet, so no earrings either. the necklace and the bracelets are cute, though (: i dont have an iPhone hahaha so might as well take that out of the picture too :P i do have an iTouch, but i wouldnt really wanna bring that :P

I Don't Really Fit In

i dont really fit in anywhere...
i'm feel like idk, kinda like the girl in mitchel musso's music video for "The In Crowd" i guess :3
i just dont fit in with anyone or any group or whatever
i dont know if i should be sad about that
i mean, i have a lot of friends and yet why do i feel so alone?

i want my xmas slumber party to be here already (:

Oh. My. Freaking. God.

dude. this is like, legit christmas wonderland <3

Not Anymore

you cant control my thoughts anymore. no, not anymore.

Somebody Is Trying To Kill Me

ok somebody is obviously trying to kill me right now with these pictures like whoever gave niall the permission to look so damn good and cute like in the last couple of pictures just look at those hands and omg all these feels are overwhelming me right now asdfghjkl

Chortle :D

asdfghjkl niall why are you so cute? (':

woah the boys look good ;D

My Kind Of Thing

this actually seems kinda like something taylor swift would wear (:

yea kay this seems more like me LOL
well, that is, if my mom let me dress like that hahaha
she thinks converse + dress = ugly XD

Awh NIALLER (':

ASDFGHJKL NIALLER YOU'RE TOO CUTE <3

The A Team by Ed Sheeran (lyrics)

white lips, pale face. breathing in snowflakes. burnt lungs, sour taste. light's gone, day's end. struggling to pay rent. long nights, strange men. and they say, she's in the "Class A Team." stuck in her daydream, been this way since 18. but lately her face seems slowly sinking, wasting, crumbling like pastries. and they scream, "the worst things in life come free to us." cuz we're just under the upper hand, and go mad for a couple grams, and she don't want to go outside tonight, and in a pipe she flies to the Motherland, or sells love to another man. it's too cold outside for angels to fly, for angels to fly. rippled gloves, raincoat. tried to swim and stay afloat. dry house, wet clothes. loose change, bank notes. weary-eyed, dry throat. call girl, no phone. and they say, she's in the "Class A Team." stuck in her daydream, been this way since 18. but lately her face seems slowly sinking, wasting, crumbling like pastries. and they scream, "the worst things in life come free to us." cuz we're just under the upper hand, and go mad for a couple grams, and she don't want to go outside tonight, and in a pipe she flies to the Motherland, or sells love to another man. it's too cold outside for angels to fly. an angel will die, covered in white. closed eye and hoping for a better life. this time, we'll fade out tonight straight down the line. and they say, she's in the "Class A Team." stuck in her daydream, been this way since 18. but lately her face seems slowly sinking, wasting, crumbling like pastries. and they scream, "the worst things in life come free to us." cuz we're just under the upper hand, and go mad for a couple grams, and she don't want to go outside tonight, and in a pipe she flies to the Motherland, or sells love to another man. it's too cold outside for angels to fly, angels to fly, fly, fly, for angels to fly, to fly, to fly, or angels to die.

All My Nialler Feels

he's so beautiful (':

oh my gawd just look at those hands<3

just in time for the xmas season (:

Oh, How I ♥ Directioner Fandom

just look at these pictures hahaha

Niall (':

just imagine these things happening...

imagine niall teases you jokingly but then he accidentally goes too far and you start crying which makes him start crying too as he tries to apologize and comfort you

imagine going to a one direction concert and they're singing "Stand Up" and niall walks over to where you're standing and sings his part to you

imagine... well actually, just look at the picture cuz the picture says it all (:

if you cant read it, it says
"IMAGINE niall found out you're having
a rough week so he turns to you and says..."

Ahahaha

zayn's like spongebob!

lol oh ellen

XMAS Gift?

holy crap if i woke up to this on christmas morning, i would die... except i'd rather it be niall in louis's spot LOL sorry im not sorry niall is my favorite in one direction :P

Operation Purple Sky

these are the words and these are the choices
we are the children, we are the voices
this is the life and these are the questions
this is the time we're being tested 

don't let them change you, because you are beautiful - just like a purple sky. #OperationPurpleSky <3

Don't Be A Biotch

All These Funky Feels

LOL ok so thanksgiving hasn't even happened/occurred yet and im already ready for christmas. i mean like, im already listening to christmas music and everything hahahaha

Hey, Love (:

niall, don't do this to me...

lol the background was photoshopped here though 

WANEGBT (Live from New York City)

lol i love all the little dance moves she put in :D

Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me (Live from New York City)

she's so elegant and classy asdfghjkl so perfect (:

Taylor Swift - Red (Live from New York City)

her curls are slowly coming back! <3

Taylor Swift - Begin Again (Live from New York City)

the only difference between taylor singing live and on the album is that there's applause and the background music is a lil different. that's how good taylor is <3

Cher Lloyd - Oath ft. Becky G

she's so beautiful (:
actually both cher lloyd and becky g are real purty (:

Taylor Swift - Mean (Live from New York City)

that's right taylor, stand up to the haters!

Taylor Swift - Love Story (Live from New York City)

i love how she still sings all of her old songs (:
and this version sounds really good
it kinda sounds like a remix :D

FETUS NIALL :D

asdfghjkl niall's back to his
x factor hair days...
he looks like fetus all over again.
too many feels <3

no dont do this to meeee too attractive

he's just too cute... oh nialler <3

oh you're cool ;D

Random Ramblings

love it when louis sings this part (:

i'm finally bringing my grade up in math. FINALLY. but my grade in science is still really sucky. i hate it when all these smart people complain about how their grades are really close to an A- or something and im just like "chillax guys i only have a B- and y'all are complaining?" really, ppl? i absolutely hate it when people do that. it's like, idk, they're trying to get other people's attention. it's stupid and annoying as f*ck.

hahaha oh niall, you special snowflake <3

ionno if i like elliot that much anymore. idk, we don't even talk that a lot anymore! i just dont know anymore. i kinda like this other guy, koji, but then again i still have these conflicting feelings about elliot. maybe i should just stick to having pretend romances with niall. yeah, that should work. watch as i end up forever alone and living with dozens of cats because i never bothered looking for true love, instead only pining after niall horan - a famous singer in a famous band called one direction who i'll probably never meet.

this is so depressing LOL. what is wrong with meeeeeee. apparently a lot. god, i hate science. it sucks. why is it so difficult? why is the whole damn freaking world so difficult? high school is so weird. i always thought it'd be like jr high school, just bigger and with more students and teachers. but for some reason, everything just feels like so much more than just that. i hate it when people know what's going on, and i'm just standing there like a clueless dumb freak. i hate it, i hate it, i hate it. i hate not knowing things. i hate looking like a stupid caveman. i hate not being able to understand what's going on. i hate just not knowing. i hate not being able to fit in. i hate everything that should be hated... arghhh. so many little mofos in this world to deal with. so many problems and yet so little time.

love you too, harreh :D

Little Things - One Direction {lyrics}

"Little Things"

[Zayn]
Your hand fits in mine
Like it's made just for me
But bear this in mind
It was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me

[Liam]
I know you've never loved
The crinkles by your eyes
When you smile
You've never loved
Your stomach or your thighs,
The dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine
But I'll love them endlessly

[Zayn & Liam]
I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if I do
It's you
Oh, it's you they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

[Louis]
You can't go to bed without a cup of tea
And maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep
And all those conversations are the secrets that I keep
Though it makes no sense to me

[Harry]
I know you've never loved
The sound of your voice on tape
You never want
To know how much you weigh
You still have to squeeze into your jeans
But you're perfect to me

[Harry & Niall]
I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you,
It's you they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

[Niall]
You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you
And you'll never treat yourself right, darling, but I want you to.
If I let you know I'm here for you
Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you, oh.

[Harry]
And I've just let these little things slip out of my mouth
'Cause it's you,
Oh, it's you,
It's you they add up to
And I'm in love with you
And all these little things

[All]
I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you,
It's you they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all your little things

SLUMBER PARTY

it was so much freaking fun!!! but like, i did it when it was daylight savings time, and we had an hour extra and we were all so confused about what time it was and stuff. it totally screwed us up LOL and we have so many inside jokes now :P i feel like i have a hangover/jetlag from the sleepover thang... party was epic, sleepover was even more epic hahahaha

it was so much freaking fun that i'm probably gonna have another slumber party thing for xmas... my parents seem okay with it as long as we dont wake them or my brother up again LOL and my friends seem to really want to do it again too so yayyyy looks like there's gonna be a xmas slumber party woooo

lol wait it wasnt a big deal for us
we had a 5 gurls and 2 guys sleepover
it was hella funnnnn

Big Bang Theory

soft kitty
warm kitty
little ball of fur
happy kitty
sleepy kitty
purr purr purr

NIALL

dont do this to me, niall
asdfghjkl so many feels

One Direction - Little Things

asdfghjkl
i just love how simple and sweet it is...
it's just so... idk... beautiful

Hola Noviembre

hi november... wonder how you'll turn out for me.
it's like, 1:03am right now.
i should be studying for my spanish ch1-3 test right now.
but i dont feel like it. shall i just go ahead and fail?
i think not. i'll just stay up late and study anyways.
sigh. im hoping for a pick me up...
feeling a little bit on the down low side...
and for some odd unknown reason, i dont know why.