i'm not very happy with this one... it's only okay...
hai im emily. wait no scratch that. im juliet looking for my romeo and a new pair of converse (': i was in love, but that was yesterday. i want to live my life, not just survive. but, it's hard to grow up in a world where you never feel like you're good enough. silence can be a girl's loudest cry. i think that in the end, we're all a little bit fucked up sometimes. anyways, this is my blog where i post my true feelings and all that actual shit. here, im real. and there's no stopping me.
Friday, May 3, 2013
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
It's MAY!
it's officially may 1st. that means just 50 days of school left. goodbye freshman year. you passed by so quickly. i cant tell if you were terrible or not. maybe you were good. maybe you were just awful. idk.
What The
every book that you've ever read in your life is just a combination of 26 letters. now i need to go and rethink my entire life. what is reality.
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
OMG
i wanna do my hair like this! but this is gonna take time and effort, so im going to have to wait for a day where i have less homework and no tests or projects or whatever and try it out (:
Dye My Hair?
i want to dye my hair like in the picture below, but my mom won't let me! she says all the chemicals and stuff is bad for my hair... i know she's right but i just really want to dye my hair >:(
"Heart Attack" - Demi Lovato (Sam Tsui & Chrissy Costanza of ATC)
OMG THIS IS LIKE THE BEST FUCKING COVER EVER
cuz like both sam and chrissy can hit the high notes like wtf
IM SO JEALOUS QQ WHY CAN'T I SING THIS WELL :(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jDELybyZ4oU
cuz like both sam and chrissy can hit the high notes like wtf
IM SO JEALOUS QQ WHY CAN'T I SING THIS WELL :(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jDELybyZ4oU
Just A Girl
it's sad how i dont fit in anywhere special. i dont have my own special club or sport or team or whatever thing that im in at school. everybody else does. my mom keeps telling me and pressuring me to join something so that i can have something good on my college applications. my dad keeps telling me and stuff that i wont know until i try it. but i already know i dont fit in anywhere and i already know im not good enough for some clubs. i just know that. idk, it's like some gut feeling.
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Hakuna Matata
it's time for me to be happy (: my math grade is finally starting to go up, although i'm still kinda struggling but SHHH don't tell my parents that hahaha... and plus, it's almost the end of the school year. i finally got my glasses fixed too, so now i can start seeing better again LOL. i've been wearing my old glasses these past few months, so i haven't been able to see the board in some of my classes that well.
the only thing that i'm not feeling really happy about is that michel and i are starting to drift apart. we don't really chat or text as much anymore... and we talk at school and hug and stuff but i feel like something isn't the same anymore. i don't know if it's me or if it's him, but i feel like something's up. i wanna ask him about it, but i don't really want to seem clingy or anything cuz i hate clingy people, especially if i'm like that. so i try to avoid those type of situations.
i've been really addicted to wong fu productions recently and the interesting thing is that one of the guys, wes, looks a lot like my cousin, ronnie. it's crazy hahaha.
i'm still trying to find my place socially and at school and in this world. but i think i'm improving somehow. i don't feel like there's a big weight on my shoulders 24/7 now. i feel much happier and i'm having more fun. i just wish i knew how to control my time better. then i could get more sleep and get more things accomplished faster but still do just as well.
xoxo, emily
the only thing that i'm not feeling really happy about is that michel and i are starting to drift apart. we don't really chat or text as much anymore... and we talk at school and hug and stuff but i feel like something isn't the same anymore. i don't know if it's me or if it's him, but i feel like something's up. i wanna ask him about it, but i don't really want to seem clingy or anything cuz i hate clingy people, especially if i'm like that. so i try to avoid those type of situations.
i've been really addicted to wong fu productions recently and the interesting thing is that one of the guys, wes, looks a lot like my cousin, ronnie. it's crazy hahaha.
i'm still trying to find my place socially and at school and in this world. but i think i'm improving somehow. i don't feel like there's a big weight on my shoulders 24/7 now. i feel much happier and i'm having more fun. i just wish i knew how to control my time better. then i could get more sleep and get more things accomplished faster but still do just as well.
xoxo, emily
| infinite happiness, please? |
Sunday, April 21, 2013
I'm Laughing
my organs are giggling this is so funny michel sent this to me
the ironic thing is that i'm eating apples right now hahahahahaha
the ironic thing is that i'm eating apples right now hahahahahaha
An Edit
this is just an edit i made yesterday that i'm really proud of (:
the girl in the picture actually looks a lot like me.
i have the jacket and her hair looks like mine, too.
all i would need is the camera and the obey snapback.
which reminds me, i really want a snapback :P
the girl in the picture actually looks a lot like me.
i have the jacket and her hair looks like mine, too.
all i would need is the camera and the obey snapback.
which reminds me, i really want a snapback :P
Thursday, April 18, 2013
So True
this is so true! omfg how did they come up with this? and that last one... #27? almost broke my heart. i almost burst into tears; it was so sweet.
http://www.buzzfeed.com/daozers/27-signs-you-were-raised-by-asian-immigrant-parents
http://www.buzzfeed.com/daozers/27-signs-you-were-raised-by-asian-immigrant-parents
AWH WHY
WHY IS THIS LITTLE DUCKLING SO CUTE
0:38 FOR THE CUTEST PART (:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=CWgbmgIzoT8
0:38 FOR THE CUTEST PART (:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=CWgbmgIzoT8
Sick and Twisted
i can't believe i got an 85% on my math quiz. and this was supposed to be the easy chapter! life is so unfair. why can't i ever have a little bit of happiness and celebration? i got an 80% on my biology test, too. now i have an 89.1%. it's so borderline; i'm scared. i'm sorry i'm never able to come online and blog about some good news. i feel like these past few months have been nothing but a chaotic whirlwind of sadness and hopelessness and i just feel as if i'm constantly being let down.
Sunday, April 14, 2013
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