Saturday, April 20, 2013

Thursday, April 18, 2013

So True

this is so true! omfg how did they come up with this? and that last one... #27? almost broke my heart. i almost burst into tears; it was so sweet.

http://www.buzzfeed.com/daozers/27-signs-you-were-raised-by-asian-immigrant-parents

AWH WHY

WHY IS THIS LITTLE DUCKLING SO CUTE
0:38 FOR THE CUTEST PART (:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=CWgbmgIzoT8

Sick and Twisted

i can't believe i got an 85% on my math quiz. and this was supposed to be the easy chapter! life is so unfair. why can't i ever have a little bit of happiness and celebration? i got an 80% on my biology test, too. now i have an 89.1%. it's so borderline; i'm scared. i'm sorry i'm never able to come online and blog about some good news. i feel like these past few months have been nothing but a chaotic whirlwind of sadness and hopelessness and i just feel as if i'm constantly being let down.


Sunday, April 14, 2013

Stand By Me?

'til the very end.


Take Me Away

i just want to run away from here sometimes


Come Away With Me

i cant live without you, i cant live without you, baby
i cant live without you, i cant live without you baby, oh baby

the highway wont hold you tonight
the highway dont know you're alive
the highway dont care if you're all alone
but i do, i do.
the highway wont dry your tears
the highway dont need you here
the highway dont care if you're coming home
but i do, i do.

Highway Don't Care by Tim McGraw ft. Taylor Swift & Keith Urban


Saturday, April 13, 2013

Sleep

i think it's a known fact now that i love sleep and that unfortunately, i do not get enough of it.


Hi.

well since freshman year is almost over, i'm starting to feel pressured to prepare for my future. my brothers told me sophomore and junior year are the most important years that colleges look at. i feel like i'm not doing enough extracurricular activities. in fact, i'm not doing any at all! i don't feel like my grades are very good either and that my parents are disappointed i'm doing so badly in math and science. i feel so stupid at my school cuz my school is a very competitive high school full of asians. my mom keeps saying that i should be good at math and science cuz that's asians are usually good at.

i know i shouldn't compare myself to my friends or anything, but i can't help it. my bff is vice president of our class and she's so outgoing and is very good in leadership stuff and she's just like, a part of so much at our school! she's such an amazing person and i'm so proud of everything she does. there are times, though, where i feel like i'm not good enough. i can't find anything that i really like doing in school, something that i'm passionate about. i can't find anything i'm good at, which i don't know... i guess it scares me. what happens if i never find out what i'm good at and i'll forever remain average? how will i get into any good colleges then? i want to go to a good college because i'd feel satisfied and actually feel good enough and proud of myself. i want to make my parents proud of me. i feel like in these pass couple of months at school, i've been spending so much time congratulating other people on their achievements. meanwhile, i sit at home and wonder what i'm doing with my life and when will it be my turn to ever be congratulated for achieving something? when will it be my turn to be happy and stop crying over another failure of mine? i just feel like i'm on a lower level than everybody else.

it's also getting hotter here where i live, and so lots of people have been wearing shorts and skirts and i just feel so self conscious of my body. it doesn't help that we're doing swim for our next PE unit. i wouldn't mind being short if i weren't so chubby in some places, especially my thighs. i wouldn't mind being short, either, if it were for genetic reasons and not because of scoliosis...


Thursday, April 11, 2013

Draw My Life - Ryan Higa

#inspiring
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KPmoDYayoLE

So Fucking Stupid

i'm so fucking stupid it's not even funny. i studied so long and hard for my math test, and guess what i get. yea that's right. i get a fucking 66%. SIXTY SIX PERCENT. that's a FUCKING D+. i've never scored so low on a test in my life. why am i so stupid? my mom keeps telling me, "hey you're asian. asians are good at math and science. so why do you suck at math so much?" you're not fucking helping, mom. fucking flat foot. who the fuck does she think she is, telling me that i suck? like i didn't already fucking know that. fucking shit oh my fucking god. i'm just so mad at myself right now. how could i have sunk so low?! i just scored below average. BELOW FUCKING AVERAGE. that's not the way i roll. i'm so disappointed. watch, once my parents come home and check their fucking emails and see that i got a fucking sixty six percent on my math test, they're gonna yell at me. or they're gonna talk to me and make me feel fucking guilty for being so fucking stupid. what the fuck is wrong with me oh my fucking god. FUCK LIFE you fucking suck.


Thursday, April 4, 2013

Demi Lovato

i find her to be an inspiration (:

i love her new song Heart Attack (:

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

I Need To...

i need to learn how to do this on myself :P it's so cool! but unfortunately, my hair still isn't long enough, so i'm going to have to wait until my hair grows longer. stupid hair, grow faster already! :(

fishtail braid :D

I Still Do

LOL no im serious. i still do this :c


Collage

here's my collage for april! i know this is like, 3 days late, but i finally got around to making it so... yeah (: the sad thing is though is that spring break is practically over! how did this happen?! i swear, just yesterday was the last day before spring break. why is spring break only one week? i think it should be two... one for relaxing and one for catching up on everything else. it's so unfair .-.

click the picture to enlarge it! :D

Monday, April 1, 2013

Hola Abril

happy first day of april (:
i sometimes hate april fools day .-.