My Edits!

some of my picture edits...

 

SAT

Took the SAT today. So tiring. Had to wake up earlier than usual. Got to skip my Chinese midterm, though, so I guess it's okay. The SAT wasn't that bad. Worst part was being all alone. Nobody else was from the same school as me, so I didn't know anybody. Forever alone </3

It's All Over Now

So yeah. I found out that Michel doesn't like me. He only sees me as a friend. He likes Marianne Rara and Thi Luong or something. I feel kinda sad. I thought he actually liked me. Guess not. I just told him that I liked Brian Xie. Which is true, I do like him... I'm just kinda disappointed cuz I thought that Michel had actually liked me... at least just a little bit. But I also told him that I liked someone else, except that it probably wouldn't work out so I was just going to crush on him unawares. I was talking about him. But he didn't know. He wanted to know who it was. I refused to tell him. I told him it was "my secret".

Time to listen to some Taylor Swift songs. I'll probably feel better after listening to "You Belong With Me" or "Teardrops On My Guitar" or something like that.

I promised myself I wouldn't be one of of those lovesick and clingy girls. That's going to be one very hard promise to keep. The fact that we text and chat with each other all the time doesn't help either.

Taking Me Down

Backyard

This is a picture of my backyard that I took a couple days ago...
It's really pretty isn't it? I captured the sunset with it (:

Talking

I love talking to Michel. I just don't know sometimes whether or not I should start the conversation. I know he's there, I just don't want to seem to pushy and seem to have to have the need to talk to him or something. I hate girlfriends who are really pushy and needy.

Everybody Hurts - Avril Lavigne

Don't know 

Don't know if I can do this on my own
Why do you have to leave me
It seems I'm losing something deep inside of me
Hold on onto me
Now I see Now I see

Everybody hurts some days
It's okay to be afraid
Everybody hurts Everybody screams
Everybody feels this way
And it's okay
La di da di da It's okay

It feels like nothing really matters anymore
When you're gone I can't breathe
And I know
You never meant to make me feel this way
This can't be happening
Now I see (now I see) Now I see

Everybody hurts some days
It's okay to be afraid
Everybody hurts Everybody screams
Everybody feels this way
And it's okay
La di da di da It's okay
La la la la la

So many questions so much on my mind
So many answers I can't find
I wish I could turn back the time
I want to
Everybody hurts some days (some days)
Everybody hurts some days (some days)

Everybody hurts some days (some days)
It's okay to be afraid (afraid)
Everybody hurts Everybody screams
Everybody feels this way
And it's okay
La di da di da It's okay
La la la la la It's okay

Everybody hurts somedays
It's okay to be afraid
Everybody hurts some day (yeah we all feel pain)
Everybody feels this way but it'll be okay
Can someone take me away to a better place
Everybody feels this way
It's okay
La di da di da It's okay
La la la la la It's okay
La di da di da It's okay
La la la la la It's okay

Made These 2 Pics, What Do You Think?

Short Update

OMG IM SO EXCITED. IM HOLDING A SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY FOR MY BEST FRIEND. BUT SHHHH IT'S A SURPRISE! SO KEEP IT A SECRET! ;)

So You See...

There's this guy that I really like. Actually, there's 2 guys. But they always say that if you're in love with two people, pick the second one. Because, if you truly loved the first person, you wouldn't have noticed the second. I think those are very wise words. :*

Anyways, so one guy, I've liked for a while now. But we usually only talk at school, and the conversation can get awkward fast. Like, 20 minutes fast. And he's so much smarter than me, too. That kind of makes me feel stupid compared to him.

The other guy, I just started liking... around my birthday actually (February 14th). Yes, yes I'm born on Valentine's Day, I know. It's not that big of a deal. Anyways, we chat on Gmail, we text, we Skype. We talk a lot about random things. The conversation never gets awkward or anything. And plus, he's not super smart either - so I don't feel dumb or anything LOL.

Who to choose?

Updates

I really should update more often.
But school's been really hectic.
It's the third quarter...
Wow, time passes by fast.
Third quarter means that one more quarter and school will be over. Ew, I forgot. There's still the end of year finals. I hate finals. So much studying to do...

I'll probably update more in the summer time :)

Gasp.

WOW I haven't updated in forever.
I know, saying that I've been busy is not a good excuse, but it's true.
Plus, I have computer restrictions =.=

I think I like someone.
And I think he might like me, too.
I wonder if we'll date? ;)

Oh my gosh, I'm 14 now!
Can you believe it? :D
LOL I turned 14 on February 14...
Quite ironic, eh?

Grammys

Today the Grammys are on. YAY LET'S GO TAYLOR!!!
If Taylor wins all of the Grammys that she was nominated today, then she'll have 6 in total. That's as much as Whitney Houston, and Taylor's only 22 years old!!

Oh, by the way, I forgot to tell you - Whitney Houston died yesterday at the age of 48. Reasons why? Unknown. But it's most likely because of the drugs that she took after her career had started to plummet... Poor Whitney Houston. RIP Whitney Houston.

Twitter

Gah, NOOOOOO I'm on tweet limit. =.=
LET ME TWEET!!!

The Diary of Taylor Swift... part 2

If you want to see more "The Diary of Taylor Swift" pages, check out the website that I got them from! I decided that it took too much time to post every single one of them, so I thought, why not just give you guys the website instead? I apologize if you liked it better when I posted them here instead of just giving you the website, but I'm sorry, I just don't have the time to waste... :-/

Anyways, here's the website! http://thediaryoftaylorswift.tumblr.com/page/2

♥Love♥

Update

So... I went to my Saturday School. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. It was from 8:30am-12:30pm. There were like, 10-12 people there total, I think. We got 3 breaks - one at 9:30am, one at 10:30am, and on at 11:30am. We got hot chocolate and popcorn during the 10:30am break... yum.

The classroom was rather interesting looking... The teacher was fairly nice.

I saw a bunch of people I knew... They were actually people I never thought were the kind to get a Saturday School. It just never seemed like the kind of thing that they would do LOL.

There were actually 2 other people there who had gotten a Saturday School from the same teacher that I got it from - my history teacher Mrs. Hottle. I think she enjoys giving out Saturday Schools. One of the guys who got the Saturday School from Mrs. Hottle got it for the exact same reason that I did. It's so scary how alike it was... we even brought the same thing to do during the 4 hours.

Anyways, besides my Saturday School stuff... I've been getting lots of talk about boys. As in, boys who are in love with me or have a crush on me and stuff. It's weird. My mom says that I attract too many boys LOL. Right now, as of the moment, I think there are at least 7 guys that are in love with me or have a crush on me. Hahaha, I never knew I was so liked.

Um, oh yeah. I had an orthodontist appointment the other day. They had to re-position my braces, so you know what they did? They took off every single thing so that all that was left were the braces brackets things. Then, they took off certain brackets. It HURT!!! I never thought it would actually hurt that much! And then, they put them back on, but in a different position/angle. So now my teeth hurt like hell. It's like I got my braces all over again! =.=

Ugh, oh and I took a science test on Friday and got a D- on it. I suck like shit. Why can't I ever do better than that?!? I want to be SMART for once. I hate feeling dumb and stupid. It makes me feel worthless.

"Feels like my life's been passing by with happiness just bein' a lie. How did I get here, where am I going? One more day without knowing. Struggling for one more breath, as I'm drowning in a painful death. Can someone reach out for me? In this dark and dreary sea..." -David Archuleta, Falling.

Hey

Hey everybody, sorry I haven't updated in so long.
It's just that, well, I've been really busy...
I know that's what everybody says, but it's true!
I barely had any time to myself.
AND not only that, but my parents restricted my computer time.
I'm only allowed to use it for 2 hours.
So, I have to make the most of what I have.
Which means that all my computer time = homework time.
Yeah, it sucks.

Anyways, I wanted to show you a new picture that I made.
Hope you guys like it! (:

If you want it as your wallpaper or something, just click on the image. It should enlarge then. After that, right click and select "Save Image As" and yeah. Enjoy! (:

>:F

For My BFF

these are just some pictures that i made for my best friend! (:

The Hunger Games

So I've started reading the Hunger Games trilogy.

All I can say is that it's been fan-freaking-tastic so far.

I'm still on the first book since I have to read it on a pdf file and not the actual thing. Why? Because I know I won't be able to find it at the library and if I reserve it, it'll take too long to get here. Why? Because recently, a movie has been developed for the first book: The Hunger Games. And since everybody's so excited about it, they've decided to read the books. So yeah, it's suddenly gotten popular. It's just like what happened with the Percy Jackson and the Olympians series.

Anyways, I really want to get back to my reading now. This was just a quick update for y'all!
Bye! Lots of love ♥Emily

Haunted ♥

The Diary of Taylor Swift... part 1

I Like To...

I like to put myself in pain because it numbs all of the other shitty feelings that I feel.

Wondering...

I wonder how it feels like to be in loved and to be loved by a guy...
It must be something special...

Speaking Now Cuz I'm Fearless

click on the picture to enlarge it!! that way you can read it better (:

I Think...

I think it'd be cool to have a piano like this (:

LoL, Wow, Seriously?

Funny & Cute :D

Inspirational Words (:

I Just...

wow i just cried for about 2 and a half hours because i was so scared about how my parents would think of me about getting in such serious trouble. but when my mom came home, she told me that she wasn't mad at me. she said that it wasn't my fault and that my teacher was being unfair for being so picky. she told me not to worry about what her and daddy would feel, because this was just a little thing. she said that this was just a lesson to be learned. basically, make sure you are careful with your work, because you never know how picky a teacher can be. she said not to worry about the saturday school that i have to serve either. she said that i should just do it and be done with it.

im so happy and relieved that my parents are mad at me. today was the worst day ever, and if they had gotten mad at me, well let's just say that i probably would've tried to cut myself. (except i probably wouldn't have gone through with it considering how im a spineless coward)

*sigh* well. i guess everything's okay now, apart from the fact that i still might have to speak with the vice principal about this. i really dont want to; he's really scary when he's mean. ugh, my eyes are so tired from crying now and i have a headache.

8th grade has not been a good year for me.
3 paper pickups and 1 saturday school and 1 visit to the principal and 1 soon-to-be visit to the vice principal. god, how i hate 8th grade. i mean, sure, there's been some good times, but if i recall correctly, most of them have all been bad times. i just wish this would all end soon.

i cant handle much more.

Worthless.

im broken. im so ashamed of myself. im worthless. im stupid. i dont even know why people would want to be my friend anymore; im hopeless. im probably not even good for anything anymore. when did life suddenly get to be so hard? i dont remember it ever being this way. i just want to forget everything. i just want it to end. i hate myself. i cant do anything right. i just want somebody to say that they care about me and that everything's gonna be alright and that nothing will ever hurt me. but i guess fairytales just dont come true. because i might seem like im tough and a normal girl on the outside, but on the inside im just a frightened and fragile little soul - ready to break at any moment now. i dont deserve any happiness.

Taylor Swift Lyric Pictures

Enchanted

Last Kiss

Haunted

Sleeping

Oh my god. I've been sleeping so late these days, like at 3am!! I swear, if I didn't wear glasses, everybody would be able to see the dark circles underneath my eyes and then they'd all start worrying over me and all that other shit. Pft, as if I don't already have ENOUGH people worrying about me.

I mean, seriously! Can't a girl get some private time around here? Sometimes I wish that people would just leave me alone, but then I regret wishing that because then I'd be lonely. Maybe what I really wanted was just somebody who understood me, like what I'm going through.

Life is hard.

Sometimes.

There are times where I'd feel like shit, but I'd still smile.
You know why?
Because I didn't want to talk about it.

Sometimes, I just don't want to let people in.
Sometimes, I just want to close myself off to the whole world.
Sometimes, I just need to be alone.

Cross The Line.

Hey, check out this person's Twitter. It's really good, I like it. :)
https://twitter.com/#!/cr0sstheline

Running Away.

running away through the nights so black, the stars on my shoulder, pulling me back. whispers of you, ringing through my ears, trying to forget all the wasted tears and all your lies in your brown eyes. another day goes by, and all i can say is... wish i could forget you. but you keep coming back, you're running away through the nights so black, the stars on your shoulder, pulling you back. maybe you can forget, but i just can't...

Understand.

Nobody can EVER understand me. It's impossible. The only people could possibly understand what I'm going through would be other people who also have scoliosis like I do. Otherwise, nobody can. They may say that they understand and everything but that's all just bullshit.

Nobody understands.
I'm all alone in this world.

Fearless.

This.

That epic moment when you have 13 posts for January 2012 and it reminds you of Taylor Swift. ♥

(click on the image to enlarge it)

Beautiful.

You Made Me...

My Hero :)

Haunted.

Fearless.

I am:

Outfit

This is what I wore today. I really like this outfit. :D

By the way, my wristband says "Strength" and my necklace has the black half of Yin and Yang hanging on it. I'm also wearing grey skinny jeans and black high tops converse.

Another thing - do you like my new iTouch case? I certainly do. ;)

This.

This makes me so sad... But then again, I'm glad stars like her are reaching out and trying to help and raise awareness against bullying. STOP BULLYING. OPERATION PURPLE SKY. NOH8.


http://www.huffingtonpost.com/mobileweb/ariana-grande/post_2809_b_1193895.html

New Stuff!

Yay! My mom got me new black high tops converse all star chuck taylors and a new scarf and a bunch of earrings for me to wear when I get my ears pierced and a crystal necklace thing and then she brought back a mask that her sister (my aunt) had told her to give me.

Here's some pictures! :D

me and my mask and my new scarf

my new black high tops converse all star chuck taylors pic1

my new black high tops converse all star chuck taylors pic2

my new black high tops converse all star chuck taylors pic3

Wow

Ok, oh my gosh, I just realized that I haven't update my blog in FOREVER!! I think this is the longest time I have ever gone without updating this... it's been, what, 5 days? Gosh, I must have been really out of it! Normally, I would've at least posted a YouTube video or something.

I guess I've just been really distracted from me going back to school and Winter Break ending and everything. Ugh, I hate school and all my teachers and all the stupid homework and projects and waking up early and all that stuff. The only part that I like about school is seeing all my friends.

OMG LOOK AT THIS.

I still can't believe it.
Greyson Chance followed me on Twitter.
He followed me on January 2, 2012 at 7:22pm.
He was my 233rd follower.
I fangirled so hard... I almost started crying.

Proof:

(Click on the image to enlarge it.)

David, You're One Of My Inspirations

Using a pick up line on David Archuleta

awww that's adorable!

basically, she says "hey david do you like water?"

and he replies "i do!"

and then she says "you like 70% of my body then"

and then he starts laughing and stuff :D

it was the pickup line that he once said apparently

and so the two girls thought it would be funny :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Happy New Year, everybody! Wow, it sure has been a year! I think, well I hope, that 2012 will be better than 2011... I don't think 2011 was really my year.

The first song that I listened to in 2012 was "Safe and Sound" by Taylor Swift featuring the Civil Wars. I mean, I just wanted me to feel "Safe and Sound" in 2012, yah know?

Anyways, I hope you all have a great new year. Oh, and I hope you guys all watched the New York Times Square Countdown thing! I know I did. (: